Hello June

Favourite month is here! I was actually very excited that this month is finally here, even started to plan all the events and gathering that I have been looking forward to. I like to see schedule to be super packed. 

As we entered the 2nd week of June, I am super emotional! Things wasn't smooth as I hoped. Work doesn't seems to be what I think is perfect for me. Although I have already gotten the confirmation I just couldn't see my future here. Already tried very hard not to complain to hubby and trying to keep calm at work. Trying very hard to adjust my thinking and telling myself it's not the worst as compare with previous job. But is this really what I want? Avoiding, ignoring, just telling myself to move on. Wouldn't it be the same as my previous job? Just do and start losing myself again. Dilemma.........I know I complain too much in life, I know there are more people out there who is jobless or having more serious problem in their life too. But everyone have their rights to fight for happiness right? 

It has been a very emotional week, too much thinking in my head. No answer to it. Half year gone just like this and nothing much I have achieved. Nothing seems to be on right track. Doesn't know what to write on. Shall end the post with a painting I have done to welcome June. But somehow I doesn't feel happy about it anymore...

  

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