Before I went jobless, I will have many thoughts for how to spend my time doing things I want to do. Examples like: watch dramas non stop, pick up a short course to learn a new skill, do some painting, recognize my wardrobe, do my nail arts, brush up on my cooking skills, exercise, high tea, window shopping, or maybe perhaps get a driving license. The to-do-list just keep going round my mind, but hey when I'm really jobless what have I done?
To my surprise I actually just want to stay at home and rot! Luckily enough the first 2 weeks I was busy with Chinese New Year. But right after the CNY what happened? I kind of lost, I start to ask myself what am I suppose to do every morning I wake up. Then due to the mind set of "I cannot anyhow spend money!" so I start to plan all my meals to cook. Cooking my own meals also means that the afternoon I need to stay at home so that I will have enough time to prepare for the food. But once I am at home what I'll do is watch drama the whole afternoon!
Few days down the road I start to think my life seems meaningless, I need to start looking for jobs. I will also start to have negative thoughts like "what if I can't find a job in the next half year?". Although I know that I actually have planned my savings and I have enough to last being jobless for 1 year, I'll be panic and worried that it might not be enough.... Looking though the job search website makes me demoralize as well, everyday clicking in the apply but yet no calls receive makes you worry. You start to feel yourself being useless and start to ask yourself what have you been doing the past few years? Are you really not worth the amount you have been paid for in the past few years? Negative thinking kicks in and start to feel no energy. No energy to do anything.... so how to complete the to-do-list? Continue to stay at home watch dramas loh....
Not to mention the loneliness at home....hubby was surprised I actually start looking for jobs. He thought I will have a few months break first. The thing is that IT'S REALLY TOO BORING AT HOME AH!!!!
So who said Tai Tai life is good??? Hahahaha I start to think my mom must be damn bored at home too. Really not everybody can have this kind of Tai Tai life loh....
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