Did time pass that fast? 1st half of the year has gone, without knowing it July is ending too. Life for me this year seems to be bored, stressful with work and I feel like a zombie.
For personal life I wish Aug can come faster and end soon, as I want to see the final look of my new house. But for work life I wish Aug don't come so fast and end too soon as it means my peak period for work is coming too. Recently I felt like a zombie there's no direction of how I should live on, maybe is the stress in work makes me feel that way. I am kind of sick in working in this company, I didn't dare to change my job as it's still considering paying me well with my bonus. So I tend to turn my focus to my personal life that's when I start thinking should I have a kid? Well everyone is chasing me to get a baby soon as age is catching but I just too scare I can't bare the responsibility. Life will be so different with a kid, am I really ready for it?
Recently my working partner had a long talk with me, there were some mis-communication between the 2 of us. And I am glad that she came over to talk to me, as she always got angry over small issue and I don't get why she behave like this. My other colleagues say she is still young but I don't think it's an excuse for unable to control your emotion over work. After the talk then I realize it has been a long time I am used to solo work style so she felt that she is not helping me in work. She thought that I felt she is useless to me that's why many things I didn't pass it to her to handle. Bit of it is true as I didn't want to pass some stuff to her is because I think she can't handle her emotion and will make thing worse. Well maybe I should let go some stuff and hope she will get to learn more. When I was her age I was also hoping my manager will give me more chance to prove myself. Hope we can work well together again. Cross my fingers.
Anyway July is ending let's hope for a better month in Aug!
